Fuck up.

I'm such a fuck up. Honestly, why am I such a fuck up?
I have my first probation meeting in 3 days. I don't know if they'll test me then, but they could. And what did I do last night? Smoked weed.

I wish I didn't do these things to myself. I need common sense.
Seriously, I'm extremely nervous/stressed/scared/terrified.

The first game of the Pistons preseason is on tonight. Maybe that will cheer me up :(